~Another day in an insane mind~

Ahhhh… soooooooooo many good movies coming up (and ARE/were up but I’ve missed…) *sigh* one of the things I’ve missed most since coming back here to tawau are all those cinemas~!!! TGV~!! GSC~!!! IMax~!!! *sigh* I don’t even get to buy dvds here (at a reasonable rate) to keep myself updated in the movie industry~!! I’m really missing the big silver screen…. Wonder when I can get confirmation from Massey so I can get to go to KL/Singapore for the stuff I need as well as satisfy my craving for a good movie and the caremel popcorn~!!!!!! Hopefully it’ll be sometime during the middle/end of Nov so I can catch HP-GOF, and (keeping my fingers crossed) some of the merchandise~ Hehehehe…. I’m a sucker for movie merchandise…. but hey, SOMEONEs gotta keep the enterprise running~! *grin* And hopefully the friends I have over there can spare a day or 2 out as well~!!

For those who are too lazy or couldn’t be bothered to view my profile, here is the family portrait of the cats…. Individuals can still be found in my photos.

My computer died a week ago…. I wrote that during my last post…. so now I have to spend another RM450 for the processor and the ram. The motherboard is gone again…. just changed that around 2 months ago, so the shop said that they’ll change it for free…. but instead of the AMD ,now I’m using a Celeron…. more stable I guess…. less noisy too…… argh~ to think I’ve tried in vain to avoid spending more on the stupid thing during my last semester…. *sigh* would have spared me lots of grief and anxiety~!!!!!

"There is a seed that blooms but once, that shapes all mortal hearts.

A birth of light that while it lasts

Doth in peace all worry cast:

A pain that heals, a whisper loud, yet when its sparkèd

Glory is past then doth man learn its nature true

The lighter side, the dizzied cry, the brazen hue,

Is within the darkness bound.

For in that dark doth love endure: the lover gone

It blooms anew."

–Silvaríel of Arnor

A brief moment of silence for yet another mother board and processor that died in the name of science…

What the heck…. I’ve been through enough computer parts in the last 3 years for that darn hunk of junk than most people do with 2 computers~!!!!! To think of all the time and effort I used just so I can save a bit of money and keep the old ones as it is…. then, waddayano… I come back here and have to fix that dratted thing twice~! AND i barely touched it~!!!

ARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!

Why is it soooo darn hard to apply for a masters????? ARGH~ I’m getting really really annoyed…. First, the application forms, portfolio, all those different departments, then there’s the English thingy, then the visa, the police report for the visa~(3 months~!! just for that paper to be stamped~ I DON’T HAVE ANY CRIMINAL RECORD~ How hard is THAT to write on a form~ 3 MONTHS~!! then the relevant degree itself~!! Now it’s the research proposal…. All the problems and stuff listed above has NOT been done yet (except the portfolio which is the ONLY bloody thing that I can actually DO) *sigh* I’m begining to wonder why one earth did I have this notion of doing my masters….. *sigh*

The dateline is looming uncomfortably close……..

Well.. I’ve uploaded the kitty photos onto my photos profile, so anyone interested (Amy? You asked? Meor? Houy Kuen? All you cat lovers out there?) FYI, The kittens DO act like their namesakes….. (Sorry, LOTR fans… corney, I know…. but they really remind me of the Hobbits~!!!) Hehehehe…. Except for Sam being pudgy…. this little sam is the skinniest (and tiniest~!) ~!! They romp around in my garden all day….

Here I am, unexpectedly at my dad’s office….. he’s in Hong Kong… I’m here by myself…. why? Just because I was suddenly told that I need to submit 2 copies of my passport (front AND back… I only have the front copied… not the back… who the heck knows that we’d need the back? There’s nothing there~??!?!) and dais passport is in the safeD box in the bank…. JUST took it back before dad went to HK, and ‘bingo’, we need it AGAIN…. The fates just LOVE to toy around with us mere mortals….

Anyway, back to more pleasant subjects… I managed to have a puppy for the afternoon on sunday~!!! it is the CUTEST thing~!! Colouration is pretty much like a doberman…. (black all over with brown muzzle and tummy… as well a the paws) The mom belongs to the security guards we have in our residential area, and she recently just had a few puppies…. We were driving past the guard house last sunday, and I finally gave into the temptation, stopped by, and pinched one back for the day~! (the guard giving us his blessing…. of course…) Poor little tyke… was pretty scared at first, but managed to loosen up after a few~ Hehehehe….

Problem was, I have these few… ‘pet’ cats at home. They’re not really mine, more like strays…. but identified me to be ‘theirs’ now~! Haahhaha…. I feed them sometimes…. they just LOVE to get under my foot. There are kittens now too~!

Back to the story…. bringing the puppy home was really fun…. but I don’t think the cats liked that~! They were flat out jelous~!! They always great me when I got home. But this time I had this little puppy in my arms (and those 2 are notoriously ‘bad’ with dogs…) You can imagine what happens next. Cats staking out their territory (includes me) is NOT a pretty sight~! Poor little pup~!! He’s about the size of the cat itself~

All in all, the cats ended up being scolded by me (and dad), and I needed to coax the poor little puppy from under the car~!!But after a drink of milk, he was as right as rain. While he was snuffling around the grass in my garden (the cats watching nearby…. STILL trying to get a go at the pup, but was reluctant to get another scolding by me again. Tried every trick in the book to win back favour too. With mom and dad as well as~!! That rascal~) I noticed that he had these white strands of fur at the uttermost tip of his tail~! Sort of like a paint brush dipped in white paint. It was too cute…. So it was decided that we’d call him tippy~! *grin*… a corney name.. but there ya go~

Had to send him back after that… but had a been a real fun afternoon. *sigh* I want to bring him back again, but the cats might have a heart attack~! Hahaha…. well… we’ll see.

Last night, I was rummaging through all my cds I’ve burnt over the past 4 years in MMU trying to compile a worthwhile portfolio, viewing all the past projects, photos, events, etc… and I thought.. ~wow… I had a pretty darn good time.~ Althought MMU has a lot to improve in terms of its administration and stuff like that, I found that I cannot regret making the decision of jumping into that unknown environment headfirst nearly 5 years ago….

The thing that got to me most was the group projects that I use to HATE SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH…. all the collaborations, meetings, f***-ups, anxiety, stress and sleepless days (I don’t sleep at night anyway….)…. Don’t get me wrong, my groupmates are all fantastic, it was the work and the lecturers that I didn’t like. But looking at all that rubbish, I wouldn’t have traded the experience for anything in the world, despite some of the stuff still giving me nightmares, goosebumps, thicker glasses, white hair and a shortened lifespan (by several years~! I swear~!!). What I miss most is the cameradery I had with those groups which I didn’t experience during my pre- university schooling years. All those nights of biting nails and butting heads at our apartment (kenanga 6A 08-07), Alan driving his white little kancil around (scaring the rest of the people in the car), getting lost (was everywhere except where we wanted to be), all nighter slaving away, group lunches/dinner, Houykuen tapping away on the calculator (she’s the best person you’d want to hand all your cash to), Meor sketching away with pencil and paper, the rest of us sitting around making plans (me arguing about something or other), on location doing some other stuff togather, and most of all, the peels of laughter and teasing that was almost always present to makes things seem soooo much better that it really is. I really doubt this experience can be replicated, since there are no other friends than those who have stood by one another for 4 long years (3 years, for a few others) while helping one another in this venture into ‘adulthood’.

So for those people who have had group projects with me (you know who you all are) even just once, I’d really like to say a heartfelt thanks. Specially to those few who have constantly been a companion, groupmate, confidant and most of all, good friend.

~Jeez… I’m getting maudlin in my old age~!! hahahah~